Christ is our redeemer. As I continue to grow daily in the Lord and seek Him, I find more truth. Yes, we know that Christ is our redeemer, but how often do we receive this truth and apply it to our lives. Over the last two years as the Lord began to do more inner healing to my heart, I was astounded at how much I love the Lord and can be so easily taken off track by the lack of inner revelation at the knowledge of the truth.
I was in healing and deliverance ministry for the last 5 to 6 years. From 2004 to 2007 we were blessed quite substantially. Praise be to God. However, God had a bigger plan for my life. I was listening to many and how they were going through their trials and tribulations. As the economy began to change and as I began to see so many other people struggle, I too began to not believe the truth. I started to notice my poverty mindset. This mindset was from my childhood. Growing up my family was always struggling financially. I had a job at the age of 12 in the dental profession. My dad was always in need of money and constantly asked me for money to help pay the rent or to buy food. We were always just getting by. It was tough.
When I grew up, I put myself through college and did quite well. When I quit my job in 2004, I was making 6 figures. My husband was making much more money than that. Things seem to be good. However, your past always seems to like to revisit you. I hate when that happens. I began to feel the fears and failures of what I had experienced as a child. I had been serving the Lord and the more I served, the tougher it seemed to get. It began to become very discouraging. I was thinking what the heck is going on. Why is this happening? I had quit work several years ago and my husband wasn't working full time for three and half years. Your word says that you would supplies all of our needs according to His riches in glory. I wasn't seeing that level of provision. I was faithful in tithing. I had tried to do everything right with no breakthrough.
God had a bigger plan. He was not going to leave me in the condition of which I started. He is rising me above my trust in man or self. I am a very resourceful person and have many skills, but God wants us to trust him and surrender. He wants to show himself as the God of the impossible, the God of glory and the God of provision. He was showing me that he wants obedience, but I was trusting in the wrong thing. My husband and I had made investments in properties and well.....lost our shirts. We lost quite a bit, but as he has been speaking to me, he was showing me how much I do not fully understand his redemption. My husband and I didn't quite see eye to eye in our property investments and took the losses, but the Lord told me that my problem was that I did not believe he could redeem the situation because of our own issues such as lack of unity in the purchases. He said the devil came in and lied. The Lord came to redeem us from our sins and what we have done wrong. He can redeem any situation. Jesus paid the price to recover ownership of us. He is also the responsible for our needs. He can redeem us despite our failures.
As this revelation came, I got so mad at the devil and a new hope arose in me. I know that the Lord is telling me that He is redeeming our situation. Not only is he doing this for us financially, but also mentally, physically and emotionally. He is going to restore the years that the locust have eaten. I will have plenty to eat, until I am full and I will praise the name of the Lord my God who has worked wonders for me.